Wednesday, July 30, 2003

Thoughts while mowing the lawn:

How do you describe color to a color blind person? They see in shades of black grey and white, so how you tell them what red is, or green? What does the sky look like to a color blind person? and even if you do manage to describe color, how do you know what you see as one color isn't a different color to someone else. What if when you see red, i see green. But its just that we grew up with them telling us that its red, so when i see green, i think its red....but you all see red, so you dont notice anything wrong with it. Its like if you went to Austrailia, and they called Green, Blue. Its still the same color, just a different name. So if we cant describe color, then how do we know we are all seeing the same things?

Also, on the same line of thought, how do we know the emotion we know by a name are the same felt by someone else. Like Love, no one can truly describe love. Or sorrow. If i say im feeling sorrow, that meaning could be compleatly different to you than it is from me. No one is the same, so then why would emotions be the same for each person? Theres just no way to find out i guess.

To be backed into a corner is supposed to be bad, but is it? A corner is easier to defend than in the open. Its a tatical fact that when up against larger numbers, to have your back against a wall is a good thing. It stops people from being able to suround you and sneak up from behind. In Jail, you want your butt in the corner, who knows what might happen if you dont. The downside of a corner is that it leaves no avenue for escape or withdrawel. Once in your corner, thats your last stand. This is when the trapdoor of a cyanide pill deprives your enemy of his satisfaction of the final blow. For extra points, you can try to kiss them after taking your pill, hopefully taking them with you. And thats what its all really about.

Would the world be better if everyone thought, "You're the least important person in the room, and don't forget that." People would be alot more humble, but then again very insecure. Everyone needs to relize that they are selfish pigs, but still have confidence. "The common denominator of all we see is always, transparently, shamelessly, the implacable 'I.'" We should be more concerned about otheres than ourselves, this is true. But its or nature not to.
10:55

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

James Bond Marathon:

Day 1: Dr. No(111), From Russia With Love(118), Goldfinger(108), Thunderball(129), You Only Live Twice(117)
Day 2: [Casino Royale(125)] On Her Majesty's Secret Service(140), Diamonds Are Forever(121), Live and Let Die(123), Man with the Golden Gun(119)
Day 3: The Spy Who Loved Me(128), Moonraker(127), For Your Eyes Only(129), Octopussy(126)
Day 4: Never Say Never Again(134), A View to Kill(131), The Living Daylights(130), Licence to Kill(133)
Day 5: Golden Eye(130), Tommorrow Never Die(120), The World is not Enough(128), Die Another Day(132)

Someday this will happen.
11:06

Sunday, July 27, 2003

I dont know, just going to go off on a few things:

My family is tight. We had a family gathering today, and just for an idea, my dad's dad's brothers' wife's brother's grandchildren were there....and i think that is rad. its just cool how intergrated it is, and how even though that are so extended, they are treated just as close. If you need an army in the Lodi area, just tell me and i can get one in about half and hour. However, my whole family are drinkers. Heavy drinkers, but that are still really cool drunks. Not the mean kind sitting on the corner bar stoll yelling at everyone walking by, but just cool people. and ALL of them drink. Every last one of them......except the old ones like my grandma, theyve stopped. So basicaly its my heratige to be a drinker, but still i defy them. But still, its sooooo funny just to sit there and listen to them talk. Like my cousin, well my dad's cousin actualy, got started about his hair cut....and then his dauther and brother come out and they all get into it. Its so funny. Or my sister just talking to my cousin about how late night means start adding on the pounds. They are just plain funny to listen to, you all should meet them. And they are such good natured people, they will bend over backwards just to help you out. Doesn't matter, as long as you are family or a friend of one of the family, or even a stranger (but not as much). If you came with me, all id have to do is say youre my friend and introduce you, and youd be parting and joking around with them like you were a part of my family. They are just plain cool.

Another fact about my family, is that since we are japanese, the eldest male child of a family in herits everything. My Grandfather was the oldest, and my dad was the only male child as am I. Think of it like Royalty, they pass it down. So im next in line after my father to gain everything. (which can suck) but anyways, my grandfather died sometime ago, and now my grandmother is basicaly the head of the whole family network. But really, since Japanese go by males, not women, my dad is. So its funny, because everyone has decided that he has veto power over things and when they want to change traditions or something they ask him and they are all like, "Oh ask Willie, hes the patriarch of the family" Then they ask him, and usualy he just nods his head. And if he oks it, they are do it and if anyone complains they just say, "oh but Willie told us its ok" Anyways, the funny part is in my mind its like the Godfather, where he just nods his head and the hit is done and the guys dead. I guess you just have to see it to understand.

When i go to take my Id picture for Senior year, im going to dress in full camo. Since they dont go in the yearbook or anything but your ID, that would be cool. but i dont know if theyd let me because it would be ahrd to tell who it is in the picture with the camo paint and such. Hmmm, well.....i dont know. it just would be super rad if i could.

I dont know what reminded me of this, probably some coversation with laura but i used to have the coolest neighbor ever. She's about 5 or 6 years older than I but was here from when i was born to about 6th grade. Her name was Tina. Shes the one who taught me to bike, rollerblade and everything else. She babysat me when my parents left, she hung around all the time and was just generaly cool. The only thing that sucker was that bother her parents died when she was little and she lived with her grandparents across from my house. Her Grandparents are the meanest grumpiest old people ever (now they are divorced, probably because they relized they both suck) and they were horrible to her. HORRIBLE. So she tried the whole sicide deal and would run away sometimes, cops would be called, theyd find her somewhere and bring her back. This happened one too many times i guess because her grandparents had enough and sent her to some foster family. She came back every once in a while, seemed like she was doing ok. Then i guess she dropped out of highschool. One day i was walking down the street with two friends over by Tracy's house by some church/school thing and a car pulled up with 4 teenagers inside. And you guessed it, one of them was her....they were picking up her boyfriends brother. They were dressed like the typical druggie gangstars, with smoke pouring out of the car. She came recongized me and came over...man am I dissapointed in her now. She used to be so cool, and now....just one of the typical people i dispise. Oh well, i guess thats the choice she made, but my image of her was crushed, and now everyonce in a while i think back to her and just wonder whats she doing now.

Another one of my childhood people was Jimmy. He was the coolest guy ever. Just 3 years older than me, we were more of friends than Tina and I. I dont really feel like going into detail about him, but now hes the typical druggie white trash. And im disapointed in him too. He was truly my role model growing up, the guy i looked up to. So many memories of the good times all dashed now. meh.

Trains suck. Today we were driving and just as we get to the tracks, the gates close. Then this train comes....moving so slow i could have beat it by running, and its the longest thing ever. So we sit there for 20-30 min and we finaly see the end coming. Then just as its about 50 yards from passing us, the train stops. Just stops. We hear the air being let out of the breaks, and it just stops dead in front of us. Then it starts backing up. So we just say screw this and start driving on a rode that runs paralle to it and beat it to a crossing. All they were doing in that train was switching tracks. Theres a friken time to do that, and its not at 5 in the evining, its at 2 in the morning when no one who cares is on the road. That truly did bite.

Our world is all about convienence. I'll let you think about that because its time to eat. later foo
21:27

Saturday, July 26, 2003

Druggies and Sots: they suck, they piss me off, and they screw us over.
23:04

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

"This is the California where it is possible to live and die without ever eating an artichoke, without ever meeting a Catholic or Jew. This is the California where it is east to Dial-A-Devotion, but hard to buy a book. This is the country in which belief in the literal interpretation of Genesis has slipped imperceptiby into a belief in the literal interpretation of Double Indemnity, the country of the teased hair and the Capris and the girls for whom all life's promise comes down to a waltz-length white wedding dress and the birth of a Kimberly or a Serry or a Debbi and a Tijuana divorce and a return to a hairdressers' school. 'We were just crazy kids,' they say without regret, and look to the future. The furture always looks good in the golden land, because no one remembers the past. Here is where the hot wind blows and the old ways do no seem relevant, whereone person in thirty-eight lives in a trailer. Here is the last stop for all those who drifted away from the cold and the past and the old ways." -Didion
08:55

Why is this world so confusing and complicated. Emotions, thoughts, feelings, hopes, dreams, hearts....... I dont know what i want anymore. actualy, i wish i knew what other people we're thinking. Everything would be alot easier. To know feelings were mutual or if your just getting play along. Why am i doing this. There are so many questions un answered, and even the ones people ask of myself. None can i answer even if i should know. Do i really want what im thinking? or is it just because ive spent too much time with it, turning it over in my mind, seeing it all the time. I guess i do, but its so good the way it is now, everything is perfect. or is it? Slowly we're pulling apart. I can see it happening, does anyone else? Everyone else is better than me. They're smarter, cooler, more interesting, listen better.....well im SORRY, i cant be everything thats perfect, i and if i cant be the one you want, just LEAVE ME THEN! i dont care anymore, ill be fine, you just have to relize whats in your own mind. I can only be who I am..... but at least give me the decency of being able to THINK that im perfect. I guess not, because im not perfect, ITS "perfect". not me. Im the one in the wrong, i'd better change or put a stop to it. those are my choices i guess. Then again, i could always just let it be. I hate you all......no i guess not. really I LOVE YOU, yea i know who you are, and i do love you. doesn't seem like anyone else really cares about me. But i wish i could decide what i want. Why cant these things be easy.
00:16

Monday, July 21, 2003

Drugs are bad:

MAN CUTS OFF PENIS, EATS IT
(Malaysia, AP) - A Malaysian man sliced off his own penis, then fried and ate it after taking hallucinatory pills that caused him to hear voices urging him to mutilate himself, police said. The 34-year-old man claimed he only realized what he had done when he saw blood oozing from his crotch, said a police spokesman in the town of Sitiawan, north of Kuala Lumpur. The man had taken hallucinatory pills before sleeping and awoke hearing voices telling him to chop off his penis and devour it, the spokesman said. He was hospitalized in stable condition, the national news agency Bernama reported.
11:32

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

No one makes lists of bands they like anymore, is this because that fashion has passed? or because people are simply afraid of making their prefrences known? Well, here for your ammusment is my list. Im gonna put some onehitwonders, but not all, same with people who i only like one song of theirs. anyways, Enjoy. And if theres any that you belive deserves the honor, please let me know.

AcDc, Ace Troubleshooter, Afi, Anti-Flag, Ataris, Aquabats, Aretha Franklin, Associations, Audio Adrenaline, Bad Religion, Bangles, Barnes and Barnes, BEACH BOYS, Beastie Boys, Beatles, Bill Haley, Billy Idol, Billy Joel, Bing Crosby, Black Sabbath, Blink 182, Bob Seger, Bob Dylan, Bowling for Soup, Bruce Hornsby, Buckner and Garcia, Cake, Carl Douglas, Catch 22, CCR, Cherry Poppin Daddies, Chicago, Coasters, Contours, Cream, Dance Hall Crashers, Dashboard Confessional, Dave Matthew's Band, Dean Martin, Deep Purple, Disney Songs, Divo, Doobie Brothers, DPR, Eagles, Earth Wind and Fire, Elton John, Elvis Presley, Fine Young Cannibals, Five for Fighting, Five Iron Frenzy, Foo Fighters, Four Tops, Gene Autry, Grand Funk Railroad, Green Day, Guns and Roses, Hippos, Iron Maiden, J. Geils Band, Jackson Five, James Brown, Jars of Clay, Jefferson Airplane, Jerry Lee Lewis, Jimmy Buffet, Johnny Rivers, Johnny Socko, Joan Jett, Kenny Rogers, Katrina and the Waves, Kinks, Less than Jake, Little Richard, Lovin Spoonful, Louis Prima,Lynard Skynard, Mad Caddies, Mamas and the Papas, Marvin Gaye, Michael Jackson, Metallica, Midtown, Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Monkees, Mustard Plug, MxPx, Naked Eyes, New Found Glory, Newsboys, nofx, Norman Greenbaum, Offspring, Operation Ivy, Ottis Redding, Pax 217, Pennywise, Phantom Planet, Pink Floyd, Police, QUEEN, Racer X, Radiohead, Rage Against the Machine, Ramones, Rancid, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Reel Big Fish, Relient K, Reo Speedwagon, Rod Seger, Rod Stewart, Roy Orbison, Roy Rodgers, Run DMC, Sammy Davis Jr. (and others from the Rat Pack), Seekers, Simon and Garfunkel, Simple Plan, Skatalites, Slackers, Slick Shoes, Something Corporate, Starting Line, Steppenwolf, Steve Miller Band, Stevie Wonder, Styxs, Sugarcult, Suicide Machines, Supertones, Surfaris, Survivor, Sweet, Switchfoot, System of a Down, Temptations, The Who, They might be Giants, Thin Lizzy, Three Dog Night, Tiger Army, Toasters, Tom Jones, Tom Petty, Tommy James and the Shondels, Tool, Train, Turtles, U2, Vandals, Vertical Horizon, Vitamin C, War, Wierd Al, Weezer, Wild Cherrys, Yellowcard.

There now, be ammused, offended, happy or disguested at will. It bears no harm.
15:57

Sunday, July 13, 2003

Sorry

I'm Sorry for all the pains I've caused you
Sorry for the thoughts I think
Sorry for all the things that I do
Sorry for ending it all at the brink

I'm sorry that I ruined it all
Sorry that no one can understand
Sorry that I couldn't stop you're fall
Sorry that it didn't go as planned

I'm sorry when it falls apart
Sorry when it happens all wrong
Sorry when it's done from the start
Sorry when I don't belong

I'm Sorry for not being your king
Sorry that I don't hold your nitch
Sorry when I can't solve everything
But you know, Eat it Bitch.
10:58

Thursday, July 10, 2003

Whats that you ask? Whats one of the best feelings/thing to happen? Well i guess ill tell you.

To be an underdog. To be brought down as low as possible, and to fight and struggle. To survive. Then, after persevering in the face of the challanges, to come up against the favored and to not triumph over him, but to mearly hold your own. To gain the respect of the favored, and all present. to not be looked down upon, but eye to eye now as an equal. To amaze and stun everyone, that even the favored, your enemy, cannot look on you as before, but with new reveir and respect. This is one of the best things in the world.


Example: Jamaican Bobsled team- Major underdog, didn't win, but gained something not had before...Respect.
And to some, thats more important.
00:11

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

I want to fight someone. By someone, i mean a guy because there is no way I'm going to do this with a girl. It will be a good old fashion street brawl. We'll come into it as friends and still be friends when its over, no emotions attached. The rules? Simple, no face or crotch. As soon as either of those are hit by accident (because since we are friends, we're not going to aim for that on purpose, but if accidently this happens) it's over right there, we just walk away and its done. There will be no glory over the fallen for the winner. Each will respect the fight as it was, even if it is very one-sided. (Mostly because anyone i fight with, i'll be the underdog
12:39

Water truly does suck!



Also, just a few things from this rad new site Laura found....

-There are two types of people in the world: people who like to blow soap bubbles, and people who like to pop the soap bubbles that other people have blown.
Which are you?

-Also.........you are sad if this is what you order online

-How every question should be answered:
My view of the whole thing is that until the lessons learned are known and have been developed -- they're still being
worked on -- I wouldn't be able to answer a question like that, and it impresses me that others can from their
pinnacles of relatively modest knowledge.

-and Utah loves jello

-How much porn can your priter print out? No need to find out, these guys already have.

-The last one is the one that is truly the mark of a good advice giver. mangos

-Satan


00:06

Sunday, July 06, 2003

Life is about choices and decisions. Even if you are religous, it still is. You can do anything, as long as you are willing to pay for it. If you're driving a car with someone dieing in the seat next to you and your trying to get to a hospital, you're gonna run every frikin red light you can, because you figure that getting a ticket is worth saveing this dude's life. that is the decision you made. Rules are ment to guide us, not to control us. That is why people say rules are ment to be broken. Sometimes it's nessesary to. The ten commandments are rules to live by. When it says how you shouldn't kill, its true. you shouldn't. but if its nessesary, then do it. That is why soldiers can still be religous. If its nessesary to protect your family or nation, or to save many lives of others, then by all means, rules can be broken. Alls fair in love and war. Yet not, only war because we all know love aint fair at all. So next time you know your breaking the law, and someone tells you you're gonna get it, just tell them you're willing to take the concequences.
22:00

Thursday, July 03, 2003

just some racist jokes for you....sorry if you're offended.....but really, its all in good faith right?

Did you hear about the old French rifles for sale on Ebay?
-Never been fired, dropped only once.

Why don't Italians like Jehovah's Witnesses?
-Because Italians don't like any witnesses.

Why is there no Disneyland in China?
-No one's tall enough to go on the good rides.

The French have just ordered a new national flag. It's a white cross on a white background.

What would you call it when an Italian has one arm shorter than the other?
-A speech impediment.

How do you fix a woman's watch?
-You don't. There is a clock on the oven.

How can you recognize a French war veteran?
-Sunburned armpits.

Why did they raise the minimum drinking age in Tennessee to 32?
-They wanted to keep alcohol out of the high schools.


21:23

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

just some facts for you to ponder:

-Drunk ants always fall over on their right side.
-One out of every two hundred women is endowed with an extra nipple.
-Jellyfish sometimes evaporate.
-George Washington grew marijuana in his garden.
-Women shoplift more often than men—the ratio is 4-to-1.
-Utah and Idaho are the only states where executions can still be carried out by firing squad.
-Menstrual cramps have been known to induce orgasm.
-On average, a four-year-old child asks 437 questions a day.
-After eating too much, your hearing is less sharp.
-Four percent of American women own no undergarments.
-Experts say that once you file something, there's a 98 percent chance you'll never look at it again.
-Men can read smaller print than women. Women can hear better.
-On average, we forget 80 percent of what we learn on any given day.
-Research shows that college graduates live longer than people who did not complete high school.
-The bananna is actualy a berry.
-When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.
-The first victim of the electric chair took eight minutes to die.
-Mormon leader Brigham Young had 56 children by 27 wives.
-"Oculolinctus" is a fetish in which people are sexually aroused by licking a partner's eyeball.
-In Kentucky, 50 percent of the people who get married for the first time are teenagers.
-Women swallow half of the lipstick they put on their lips.
-Both Hitler and Napoleon were missing one testicle.
-Two of the main causes of temporary impotence are tight pants and prolonged cigarette smoking
-The first episode of Sesame Street was sponsored by the letters W, S and E.
-Studies prove it’s harder to tell a convincing lie to someone you find sexually attractive.
-Table skirts were invented during the Victorian era. It was feared that a glimpse of a table leg could drive a man into a sexual frenzy.
-Psalms 118 is at the exact center of the Bible.
-The word "dude" is a combination of the words "duds" and "attitude."
-The size of your foot is approximately the size of your forearm.
-Under the law, you need at least three people to constitute a "riot."
-"Teen" is a Scottish word meaning "grief."
-Women blink twice as often as men.
-The middle stall in a public bathroom is the most contaminated. The first stall is the least contaminated.
-Robert E. Lee had exceptionally small feet—his shoe size was just 4½.
17:41